ENTAH KE BERAPA KALI

Assalamualaikum wbt,

I wish I could see you now,

to solved all our problems .

It seems to be worst each day.

With more problems adding.

Every time , every second, 

You make me realize that I'm not good enough for you. 

It's only how the way I treating you.

I know, even myself get worst.

And , every time too, 

It keeps reminding me that you should just leave me.

But you know I wouldn't let you go.

It seems that my battery is gonna to die soon.

Every words that you said just make me realize who I am. 

NEVER BEEN ENOUGH

Assalamualaikum wbt,

When couples quarrel everyday, they seems to had problems.

Either they're not meant to be together, 

Or thats the way they express their love.

I started to realize so many thing. 

About you, me and us.

Is this the best pathway of our life ?

The only way to reveal the problems, 

One of us have to just kept quite, 

Accepting of what had happened.

And move on with life.

But that way of solving problems is unfair !

Too many problems bring me here,

to say :

I just can't be too perfect to you.

this love had changed me to a level, 

even myself won't recognize it. 

Seriously, I'm not the person you should fall in love into.

Everyday preparing yourself with any possibility.

That I might gone mad or scold you.

You shouldn't be treated that way.

Waiting for me whole night long, 

At the end, just a heartbreak.

You deserve much more better than this.

Really you deserve much more better that this.

Search people that can treat you as a lover.

Not as a slave, or hater.

I'm sorry my dear.


*Song of blog : Anuar Zain - Hanya Milikmu

PART A PHASE I EXAM

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Nampaknya, lagi 1 and half day tinggal. 1 week Nak cover apa yang telah belajar for 5 month, haha impossible. Unless memang sangat rajin, otak berjalan even tengah tidur and tak cepat putus asa ! 

Bila review balik apa yang telah dilakukan selama seminggu yang lalu, hmm okaylahh. Itu je yang termampu buat masa ini. Cukuplah tekanan sana sini, tak henti-henti. But I'm proud to myself, sebab even ada masalah yang sebesar-besar yang uji pun, I still manage to study, even though taklahh se-effective mana compare to study smart. 

Bila kira balik lah my total study time, haha agak lawak sikit. Sebab sekejap-sekejap balik rumah, then balik kolej balik. But I wont went back home dahh , cukuplah beberapa hari balik. Kena guna masa sebetulnya memandangkan ada lagi 40% yang takhabis study. Banyakkan.

Okay okay, Kalau kat rumah ,bila di kira, bangun pagi pukul 6am paling lambat 6.30. Dah solat terus study, haha amazed tak ? Study punya study sampai pukul 11 am mcm tu. Then menyiapkan diri makan rehat solat, pukul 2pm sambung till 6pm, " kadang-kadang" hehe. And malam usually start pukul 9pm till 12am maybe. 

Total study time bila kat rumah = 4 + 4 + 3 = 11 jam.

Tapi lain pula cerita nya bila kat kolej. Misalnya that day during Conass week. Bangun pukul 6am. Then study sampai 10am then mandi. After that sambung study till 1pm. I really skip my lunch !! Then after Zohor sambung till 5pm macam tu, then I stop. Boleh bayangkan how big my brain expand ? And malam dalam 7.30pm after maghrib sambung study samapi lahh 12am. 

Total study time kat kolej = 6 + 3 + 5 = 14jam

Haha time sekolah menengah dulu bukan main lagi galakkan study 4 jam. 4 jam tu pun dah rasa too longgg. Tapi medic, haha 14 jam pun tak cukup lagi. 

Akhir kata, doakan kejayaan for final exam nanti. Moga dipermudahkan segala urusan. Harap segala usaha mendatangkan hasil. Hanya mampu tawakal kepada Allah S.W.T .

InsyaAllah.

UNTITLED V

Kadang-kadang, pilihan terbaik bukanlah penjamin kesempurnaan hidup. 

Mungkin ini bukan pilihan yang terbaik.

I'LL USED TO IT :)

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Susah sebenarnya nak cari masa sesuai to post new entry. A lot of things to write, but the time seems tak berapa sesuai. And hati pun tak terasa nak share apa-apa. Banyak yang disimpan, tanam entah bertumbuh cabang di mana, tapi akhirnya mati juga begitu saja haha apa merepek lebih-lebih hadoii.

So hari ni, New Year. Yang orang begitu teruja sekali nak sambut. Siap buat konsert sana-sini. Bunga api takpayah cakaplahh. Depan rumah je dia pasang. Tapi nasib lahh dorang tu non-muslim. Yang takfaham nya, kenapa kita umat Islam agungkan sangat nak tunggu tahun baru yang bukan mengikut kalendar Islam ? Padahal kita sepatutnya setia mengagungkan kalendar agama sendiri.

Cuba ingat balik time Awal Muharam yang dulu. Berapa ramai yang ingat tarikh Awal Muharam ? Berapa ramai yang sempat baca doa akhir tahun dan doa awal tahun ? Tapi bila tahun masihi, siap attend the concert lahh, siap buat resolusi lahh. Bangga sangat ke ?

Bukan nak kata apa, sistem kalendar negara memang menggunakan sistem kalendar masihi, tapi kita sebagai umat Islam kenalahh ambil inisiatif sendiri untuk membangunkan balik kesedaran kalendar hijrah. Sentiasa ambil perkembangan. Tak semua melayu, adalah Islam kan ? 

** Terima kasih kerana mengajar erti penantian dan kesabaran yang menyeksakan.
I'm trying my best not to be DEPENDENT.
People may change a lot by one caused.


When people change, nothing else mattes.


I'll used to it, soon .