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Saturday, January 28, 2012

We Start and End with FAMILIES (:

okay , berkenaan dengan tajuk, this post i'll talk about family, of course mine. this Chinese New Year hols memberi banyak pengalaman, hadirnya seorang baby yeaa! yang comel. well, menarik . so for the 2 days, bersatunya keluarga Mokhtar ke destinasi yang taklaa grand sangat, cuma cukup memberi kegembiraan tak terhingga. haha 

so, this is it. ICT s.alam. even rumah dekat dengan ICT pun, baru kesempatan nak pergi. well unplanned. ingat nak terus tidur after whole day berjalan, tapi kakak ajak. jarang dapat peluang macam ni kan. 



haha sumpah jelous melihat kebahagiaan mereka. memory flashback !and they both look sweet together. love you papa mama !



waktu ni, semua dah keletihan. tenaga dah hilang bila awal-awal sampai sini. excited laa katakan. Allan Haziq pun dah mengamuk, 1st time kena selsema. seriously nice view kat ICT. tak rugi kalau datang pun. just wish dapat datang lagi and play all things yang ada kat sana , especially SNOW !



haha takperasan pun bila this photo is taken. when everybody was busy doing their things ~



i forget what this dessert called . emm something mud pie chocolate with ice cream. haha advanced birthday present from kakak. well , thanks a lot. haha walaupun dessert ni cost berapa je, but at least ada laa present juga. it keeps me remind that im getting older soon !


finally, ini laah keluarga Mokhtar. complete set. haha bak kata mama, " tunggu nanti beberapa tahun lagi, kalau makan kat sini, mau the whole table dari depan sampai belakang reserved untuk kita je" . haha really make sense. yelaa kakak entah dah berapa anak time tu, and koko & k.ain pun dah kahwin ada anak. me brought my husband or BF *in case kahwin lambat, and nurul bawa BF. haha kan ? tak sabar nak tunggu that moment. 


 " OUR FAMILY IS IS A CICLE OF STRENGTH OF LOVE. WITH EVERY BIRTH AND EVERY UNION, THE CIRCLE GROWS "


Saturday, January 21, 2012

masa untuk menjadi seorang yang dewasa (:

cuti mid semester baru bermula. total day of 1 week, including chinese new year 2 days. jadi, cuti seminggu masih tak tersusun jadual aktiviti. atau mungkin membesarkan badan kat rumah je. 

jadi berkenaan dengan tajuk. hmm well semester 2 penuh dengan dugaan, ujian. maybe nak uji how i can handle sort of things. time keep changing. and im still there waiting for nothing. jap, kenapa ayat macam ni ? okay whatever. actually seriously dont know where to start. semua happen suddenly. when i'm not ready , or at least had a sign. perasaan yang bercelaru. people keeps came and go. 

3 weeks banyak mengajar erti perasaan itu. berkenaan engkau, engkau dan engkau. tipu kalau tiada sekumit perasaan gembira bila mengetahui tentang itu, jujur ia pernah menjadi angan-angan yang dipasang. tapi mungkin belum sedia untuk semua itu. terlalu awal, mungkin. atau masih belum bersedia untuk berkongsi dengan orang lain. i dont know. 



satu kesimpulan sentiasa di minda. time change, people change. perasaan yang wujud hanya menguji sebanyak mana keimanan kita. the rest, is how the way we handle it. kalau sanggup menunggu, alhamdulillah. itu sudah cukup membuktikan that you really want it. kalau dah putus asa, thanks untuk that point. you're not meant for that. so bersabar, jangan berputus  asa. insyaallah apa yang dinantikan akan membuahkan hasil. harap begitu.

< never put too much hope on everything. BE COOL >

*dan saya, juga akan tetap menunggu   ;)

Sunday, January 15, 2012

never care about this before. now, everything change.

okay, week 2 is over . here comes week 3. well, some of the resolution in week 2 had been done so well, but not all. about the test, english presentation. alhamdulillah i manage to settle by that week. so in this week 3, what i hope is

  • study well in physics test, this time, no marks below 5.
  • still trying not stalking his FB. seriously it hurt me much.
  • settle all the tutorial by thursday, otherwise, not CNY hols.



*so semalam the whole day and night hang out bersama rakan. dan menghabiskan voucher buku yang kerajaan bagi. itu pun baru rm50 saja. tak decide nak beli apa lagi selain dari stationary. i've been came across this question " kenapa cha tak balik rumah ? " by one of my friend bila keluar semalam. haha okay melissa mokhtar tak balik rumah setiap hujung minggu ? memang harapan laa. yup, memang diakui pun tiap-tiap weekend balik. 

well, it take me a period of time to digest this quest. sebenarnya tak laa pelik mana tak balik rumah pun. entah laa. actually it had been abput 3 week tak balik. selalunya , not selalunya . jarang laa kalau 2 minggu pun at least ada la balik. and kawan added ," cha merajuk ke , bawa lari ea ? " haha memang funny persoalan tu. tapi bila fikir balik. it really make sense. 
entahlaa, balik rumah nak study, memang mimpi laa. that one reason. and another thing, balik rumah , bergaduh. serius sedih gilaa ingatkan jarang-jarang jumpa at least ada laa tunjuk penghargaan or at least layan dengan sempurna. tapi balasan, perbalahan. runtuh hati . 
well, siapa yang minta benda macam ni nak happen. benda dah tak boleh avoid, so must face it. i dont know. macam tawar hati , tapi they still my family. a part of my life. sebak bila setiap kali dapat call dari parent, especially bila mama call. " cha bila nak balik, mama rindu chacha. mama selalu ulang ayat sama. padahal tak laa jauh mana pun klang kl. papa selalu call tanya tak balik ke minggu ni. omg bersalahnya dekat dorang. 

this thing hurt me more when i think about them. menunggu bila anak diaorang yang seorang nak balik rumah. rindu yang bertimbun-timbun since last 3 week dah tak mampu nak tanggung. i'm still the old me. nothing changes. i just need more time for me, and myself. btw, sangat terharu bila papa concern about me, sanggup suruh koko hantar limau mandarin kepada anaknya yang tengah kempunan. terima kasih papa.  

" YA ALLAH, ampunilah hambamu ini . "

Monday, January 9, 2012

WEEK 2 RESOLUTION .

starting a new week, still in a fresh new year.the idea was just came across while im taking my bath. well, every single new things must have at least an aim, goal and sorts.
so i'd like to starting my new every new week with new resolution, so that i know and can able to manage my life well.
  • do some revise on biology, tomorrow small test about gene technology, hate it !
  • just willing to study physics about AC current, tutorial not yet finished.
  • prepared power point for english presentation, at least by tuesday. 
  • will never care about how people feels about me. i've my own feelings to be care of !
  • never stalk his FB anymore. otherwise, i'll feel like dying.
  • can't wait for this weekend, he will fulfill his promises. maybe. 







" never put too much of hope on everything. BE COOL. "



Saturday, January 7, 2012

lumrah hati seorang manusia.

itulah akibat berhubung hanya dalam maya. baru faham kenapa before this awak kata hubungan jarak jauh susah. yup ! memang sangat  susah.
awak nun jauh kat sana, saya kat sini. apa yang awak buat , saya buat,masing-masing taktau. kalau awak tipu saya pun bukan saya akan tahu. 
awak elok gembira dengan kawan-kawan awak. saya tumpang gembira. tapi saya, tak apalah saya hanya jaga hati awak. hati saya hmm.
 saya tau awak minat gadis tu. dia cantik. awak cerita macam-macam pasal dia. saya kagum.
tadi saya buka FB, saya tengok profile awak.  mesra sungguh dia dengan awak. kawan-kawan awak kata awak dan dia sweet couple. 
saya cemburu. tapi itu hak awak. takkan saya nak paksa awak jangan layan gadis tu. siapalah saya untuk awak. 
dulu awak kata, awak akan jaga hati saya. tapi rasanya, awak tak mampu untuk berbuat begitu . memandangkan saya banyak ragam, yang mungkin awak tak mampu nak bertahan.
mulai sekarang, saya akan mengumpul segala kudrat, kekuatan yang ada. untuk bersiap sedia dengan segala kemungkinan, sampai satu masa nanti, awak adalah tiada apa bagi saya, atau mungkin sebaliknya. 

*menahan sebak. tapi itulah lumrah hidup. masih terlalu muda untuk ini.