UNTITLED IV

It hurts. 

So much.

THE BEST WORD.

Assalamualaikum wbt, 

Today, I made a mistake. 

I couldn't return back the time. 

Picking back all my words that I've thrown to you. 

All that I can fell are guilty. 

I hurt you, so much.

I shouldn't ask for thing that we've both agreed.

I've been thinking to ask about it for weeks.

I just hope that the ending will never be like this.

But it seems to happen exactly like what I were imagine.

When I read back your message, 

I just can't hold my tear.

I broke your heart.

You've hurt a lot.

And now,

The best way is, to leave. 

DAN TERJADI LAGI,

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Another random post. Quite simple, maybe.

Awak call saya.

Saya tidur, mengantuk, penat.

Saya angkat.

Awak cakap dengan saya,

Saya diam.

Awak cakap dengan saya lagi.

Saya tertidur.

Awak terkilan dengan saya.

Saya terjaga.

Awak tanya kenapa diam.

Saya menangis

Awak letak phone.

Saya menangis.

Awak hantar message.

Saya tak henti-henti menangis.

Maafkan saya awak.

RANDOM.

Assalamualaikum wbt, 

This entry hanyalah luahan hati semata-mata. It really need to be expelled out. The only way, Blogging :)

Apa sebenarnya yang dimaksudkan dengan percintaan ? A typical answer can be percintaan ni satu perhubungan yang terjalin antara lelaki dan perempuan atas dasar suka sama suka dan sayang menyayangi. Am I correct ? Everyone have their own expression about love. Betapa hebtanya cinta ni dari aspek penyatuan. Just imagine how a man from Johor let say, and the girl from Kedah can fall in love. You know, that was huge different there. We're not live with them since childhood, growing together, but at the end, they UNITE !!

We share a lot. Agree ? We should agree on that.  Dalam percintaan ni, banyak aspek yang dikongsi bersama. Perasaan itu for sure lahh. The first priority. Bila bercinta ni, mestilah kita berkongsi satu perasaan yang sama sesama pasangan, **actually ada banyak, but the obviously one, perasaan sayang dan cinta lahh kan. And the rest feeling, macam rindu, doubt, jelous, care and sorts. But actually the main aspect that I found on love is SHARING. 

Dalam hubungan percintaan juga, it actually assess us on how good we are on ACCEPTING our partner. Kan ? Bayangkan kita takpernah tahu one inch of the person's live, so dengan sesi perkenalan yang kadang-kadang mengambil masa berbulan and almost drag to years, di situ kita mengasah skill penerimaan. Perangai, pendapat, nasihat all these thing actually hanyalah satu ujian, erti kata lain, hanya lahh nak menguji sejauh mana penerimaan kita terhadap sesuatu perkara. Dan dari situlahh, terjalinnya sikap tolerasi, cooperation, respect, appreciation. Itu sebablahh wujudnya kes penceraian ( only minor contribution ), pasangan kekasih " break " sana sini, sebabnya hanyalah kerana sikap-sikap tersebut masih terhuyung-hayang macam lalang. Dan sebab perasaan kita yang macam ' lalang ' ni, kadang-kadang the people decide to get back together setelah rationalism mengambil alih.

Takbanyak nak tulis, but take home message, 

 Spend few minutes,

Reflects yourself.

Think what LOVE actually meant.

" Why you need love? "

" What should I DO and DON'T when loving someone? "

" What's your AIM when loving someone? "

" Who you should love? "

And last, 

" Why you should be LOVED? "

MAKAN ANGIN SANA SINI :)

Assalamualaikum wbt, 

Apa khabar lahh wahai blog terchinta ni ? Lama sungguh tidak meninggalkan sebarang jejak disini. Jenguk selalu je. Haha ayat merapu-rapu almaklumlah lama tak update. So holiday is getting over, tinggal 1 more day lagi, tak puasnya berehat. Alhamdulillah diri pun dah almost recover, lemah satu badan bila diarrhea nonstop for 2 days, campur vomit nausea segala-galanya lahh. So taklah terasa sangat cuti ni kan. Buku pun taklahh sentuh mana pun. Itu yang paling risau. Dengan result Conass yang baru keluar. Takpelaa syukur Alhamdulillah itulaa rezeki kan. Cuma kena strive more harder lahh kan.

Okay this blog mungkin akan jadi sedikit bosan. Nevermind. Bukan ada orang yang akan assess pun kan. So berkenaan tajuk , MAKAN ANGIN SANA SINI , huhu masuk je cuti seminggu, terus membawa diri ke Pantai Timur. Haaaa ? Apa dibuat disana ? haha adalaaa biarlah empunya diri yang simpan yee. And hari Isnin, huhu berjalan-jalan seperti traveller bersama kekasih tercinta di bandar Kuala Lumpur. We really had a great time !!

Hana Hana Hana !!! 

Inilahh dia berpicnic tepi pantai, HewHew.

And for information, hoho spaghetti ni is made by ME !!!

It's been a long time since takmenghirup udara laut. Haha but actually angin laut does darken the skin right ? It really make sense kan .

Saya jogging ??!

*more photo will be uploaded on the next entry :)

** Kepada awak, peperiksaan akhir bakal tiba dalam masa beberapa hari lagi. Setelah penat lelah menempuh dugaan selama hampir 6 bulan, inilah waktu awak melepaskan segala pengetahuan yang ada. Buat sebaiknya semasa peperiksaan ni. Memang kita belajar bukan untuk peperiksaan semata-mata, tapi sebolehnya hanya peperiksaanlahh yang menganalisa tahap kefahaman kita. Kan ? Berceramah pulaa kat sini. Okay sambung. Semester lepas, awak almost nak score matlamat awak dan saya. Kali ni, harap awak dapat melepasi matlamat itu. InsyaAllah. Saya disini akan sentiasa mendoakan kejayaan awak. Maaf jika terkasar bahasa tersalah bicara. Untuk seminggu ni, saya akan menjaga awak sebaik mungkin. Menjaga tingkah laku saya agar konsentrasi awak tidak terganggu.
Itulahh nasihat Iza yang saya tak akan lupa.

LIFE AS MEDIC STUDENT I

Assalamualaikum wbt, 

A very tough week had just gone by. Haha Seriously almost mencapai limit of the life. Get it ? Where there's no appetite, insomnia, busy studying all the time. Yea that what I experience in past week. Actually I still gone through the week macam biasa, tapi disebabkan tersalah tengok jadual, well actually I thought that Conass will be held this week, well actually it doesn't. Betapa kelam kabutnya hidup bila dapat tau yang Conass held Friday lepas. 

Okay talking about Conass, the system of marking is zero marking. You know, when you answer correctly, you get 1 mark. When you answer wrongly, you'll be deduct 1 mark. And you can not answer 30% of the questions. It means that for each question, you can just leave about 2 suquestions out of 5. We have 3 core subject; Anatomy, Physiology & Biochemistry. Each of core subject consists of 10 questions and each questions contain 5 subquestion. Each topic will be given 20 minutes to answer. And there's no TURNING BACK !!

And kebetulan juga, last week was the 1st week SELF-DIRECTED LEARNING ( SDL ) was conducted. The instructions says " STUDENT ARE EXPECT TO COME PREPARED " haha tengok ayat pun tau yang student must ready for the class. SDL ni macam sesi presentation. Student yang kena present the answer in front of group member. Nervous and low self confident memang kena lupakan lahh time tu. Takda masa nak fikir pasal benda remeh macam tu dahh. Actually teh day before SDL memang stressful skit sebab kena faham what the questions want. And the questions actually cover whole topic , macam UPPER LIMB. So semua benda yang belajar time Upper Limb dia tanya. So actually kitaorang kena revise balik everything. Haha

Kebiasaannya we have PSS atau ( Problem ?? ) halamak lupa pulaa. Dah terbiasa guna short form name. Okay lupakan. PSS ni hanya ada untuk Biochemistry and Physiology. But Biochem PSS yang everyweek ada. Selalunya lahh, for me, I'd rather come to PSS dengan kefahamam basic concept dari takfaham apa-apa. You get what I mean ? Time PSS and tutorial lahh waktu discussion dengan lecturer about things we not understand, not things yang kita taktahu padahal penerangan dah diberi time kuliah. 

The last thing, ialah compulsory subject yang every 1st year medic student kena attend. For UM lahh. For U lain, not sure. We have to compulsory subject, Ethnic and Keusahawanan. Both held on different day, once a week, class starts 5 to 7 pm !! Well time PASUM dulu takpernah pula ada kelas sampai Maghrib, so agak terkejut juga. And actually most of student, generally, dengan paksa rela je datang. Tak semua, tapi kebanyakkannya laahh. For the 1st month masih penuh lecture hall, dah masuk hujung2 2nd month, haha boleh kata half of class je. And even gabung kelas pun, it still half of 1 class. Can you imagine. Cuma terfikir untuk lontarkan idea. Why not for every medical student, tak kira what year you are, we have to take Pendidikan Islam as compulsory subject. Perlu kita seimbangkan ilmu dunia dan ilmu akhirat, kan ?

Well, I think that's all for the past week that I've gone through. Yet, not that tough lagi. Haha. Last, hanya terus berusaha dan bertawakal disamping terus berdoa agar 

terus dibuka pintu rezeki didalam bidang ini dan terus mendapat keberkatan sepanjang perjalanan hidup ini. InsyaAllah. 

This is what most people fell :)